While discussing my rage and anger (which leads to vicious self-blame and self-critical scolding), S suggested a few things for me to do to channel my anger.
“Playing a violent video game… Going to a batting cage… Screaming at someone… Crumpling a bunch of bubble wrap… Getting a punching bag…”
His suggestion to scream at someone made me laugh. I could never do that – not even when the anger is deserved. I could never hurt someone else – especially not someone I know. So that’s out.
I’ve always wanted to get a punching bag because every time my anger is triggered, the first thought that crosses my mind is to punch something. As a teen, I used to hurt my knuckles by punching walls all the time. I don’t know why this is always my go-to reaction but it is. However, that said, I can’t get a punching bag because I wouldn’t know where I could set it up at – the apartment we moved in to is pretty tight…
I’d love to go to a batting cage but I don’t know if there’s even one for use by the public here in my area. I do have the bow that I got for Christmas that I’ve yet to use because it’s been too cold to be out target practicing.
I’ve sold all my game systems and games – we don’t even have a TV anymore… So video gaming is out as well.
Lately, I’ve taken to just punching my thighs when I’m angry. Not the best thing I could do, sure, but at least I’m not breaking my knuckles against the wall…
Anyway, does anyone else have suggestions on how to properly channel anger out of the self? Perhaps I need to look up anger management techniques.