I had a great therapy session today but the rest of the day sucked and now I’m deep in the pits. I know I should be doing my assignments but I don’t want to.
I’m pretty sure I failed my Calculus final class exam. I didn’t even attempt two of the questions.
I feel like a failure. Hubster tried to cheer me up but I felt bad that I couldn’t be cheered up.
I just want to hurt myself. I know I shouldn’t but I really want to feel something other than this deep pain in my chest and this hopelessness.
Oh also, on a different note, two different people told me today that I can’t possibly be depressed because I just look so lively and so happy. *sigh* I’m not upset with them for thinking that because I do present as happy and jovial in my demeanor. I just don’t like showing my depressed side.