Thoughts from Therapy #86 – Self Punishment

Note: As usual, this is a long one – usually the posts titled “Thoughts From Therapy” are going to be really long doozy posts to read. S’ expression was worry and/or concern almost the whole time through our session today. Hey, I’d be too if I were the psychologist and my client comes in and […]

Loss and Lost

My ex got married today. I don’t know how to feel. He’s still my friend but I’ll be honest, it’s hard to know what to feel because on one hand, I’m happy that he was able to find someone, but on the other hand, I’m still raw from our divorce. I’m still grieving and feeling […]

Suicidality 

If you Google, “How to tie a noose”, the first result that comes up is a message assuring you that help is available and to call a crisis line number.  I told S that today and he responded with an enthusiastic, “That’s cool!”  While I do agree with him wholeheartedly that it is cool, I […]

Feeling Irritated for Always Being There

Whenever I find out that someone suffer from the same kind of mental illnesses that I do (anxiety, depression, ADHD), I automatically become inclined to talk to them more because I know how difficult it is to feel all alone and helpless. I would almost reflexively tell them that I’m there for them to talk […]

Pretension and Denial

I think I’m kidding myself and I’m pretending when I’m in front of everyone else. I don’t think I’m as well as I want to feel and just because I’m not thinking of something, doesn’t mean it’s not in my mind. I’m trying to be patient and when in times of loneliness, I’ve sought out […]

Emergency Session With S

I practically made S run out of his office to meet me today. I feel embarrassed to say that I not only had a walk-in session today before my group therapy session, but that I also had group therapy, AND I also requested to see S.