Difficult Weekend

It’s been a difficult weekend but I’m still here. I promised my group that I would be back next week despite the difficult thing I shared with them during group on Friday. I had initially been silent – I kept quiet for the first hour of the 1 1/2 hour session. I didn’t want to […]

People Care

“I want to die” 4 words I posted on Facebook that gained almost immediate attention from one of my coworkers and an old friend whom I’ve not seen in 5 years. It was touching. In that moment when I posted it, I had meant it. I did want to die. I was overwhelmed and exhausted. […]

Loss and Lost

My ex got married today. I don’t know how to feel. He’s still my friend but I’ll be honest, it’s hard to know what to feel because on one hand, I’m happy that he was able to find someone, but on the other hand, I’m still raw from our divorce. I’m still grieving and feeling […]

Exhaustion

I was supposed to come home and study/finish my homework or assignments. Guess what I did instead? I browsed through Amazon for things that I shouldn’t be buying and wasted all the precious time on that. It’s like I have an unconscious desire to fail in school. It also seems like with the self-harm, I […]

Reflections From Today

So I saw Dr W today, my psychiatrist. I told her how I don’t like being on Strattera and how tired it makes me feel. I also told her that it’s not working all that well anymore because I haven’t been able to focus or concentrate on anything lately. She asked me about my stressors […]

Anxious Thoughts

I have an important post about therapy that I want to write but I haven’t had the time amidst all the courses and work that I’m doing. I’m also headed to a Peer Educator’s retreat for the weekend, to learn how to be a good Peer Educator and to support the campus non-academically. So I’m […]