Still Fighting

So it has been quite a hot minute since I last wrote anything here, huh? Well, I’m still alive. I’m still anxious. Still depressed. And still ADHD. Those thing have not changed, and I don’t think will ever change. I think I’ve finally come to terms with that and have decided instead to take each […]

Monday Blues

Trigger warning: This post might trigger anxiety attacks because of what I’ll be talking about. It’s 10.35am and I’m stressed out to nearly the point of being overwhelmed. I’m close. Any more and I’ll definitely be in the red zone. I think the source of my stress came from thinking too far ahead – I […]

Psychologists Are Humans Too

I find it ironic that therapists/psychologists are so very calm, collected, and seem to have their life so perfectly balanced when you see them in their office – their comfort zone. However, once outside of that space, they are just like all of us with insecurities, fears, dreams, hopes, and such. Sometimes, it’s easy to […]

Exhaustion

I was supposed to come home and study/finish my homework or assignments. Guess what I did instead? I browsed through Amazon for things that I shouldn’t be buying and wasted all the precious time on that. It’s like I have an unconscious desire to fail in school. It also seems like with the self-harm, I […]

Reflections From Today

So I saw Dr W today, my psychiatrist. I told her how I don’t like being on Strattera and how tired it makes me feel. I also told her that it’s not working all that well anymore because I haven’t been able to focus or concentrate on anything lately. She asked me about my stressors […]

Renewed Passion

After the amazing experience I had at the Office of Health and Wellness Peer Educators’ Retreat, I’ve added one more thing that I could potentially do as a future career. I’m looking at different ways I can combine Computer Science with my other passions and I think I’ve got some ideas what I want to […]

Anxious Thoughts

I have an important post about therapy that I want to write but I haven’t had the time amidst all the courses and work that I’m doing. I’m also headed to a Peer Educator’s retreat for the weekend, to learn how to be a good Peer Educator and to support the campus non-academically. So I’m […]