Slow Recovery From Divorce

I hate my ex. When I think about all the good times we had, I feel so guilty for all that I feel – that I had once loved him, and that I now hate him. I hate that I had ever loved him. I think I was in love with the idea of him. […]

Still Fighting

So it has been quite a hot minute since I last wrote anything here, huh? Well, I’m still alive. I’m still anxious. Still depressed. And still ADHD. Those thing have not changed, and I don’t think will ever change. I think I’ve finally come to terms with that and have decided instead to take each […]

Being LGBTQ+

I was going to write a post to outline my thoughts from therapy today (the new semester just started on Monday, and thankfully, I was able to keep my Wednesday therapy session, and would still see S regularly until such a time that we both feel that I’m ready to rough life out by myself. […]

Lessons in Recovery

“I know from the way you stroke my hair, the way you talk to me, the way you look at me, that you really love me,” Chérie said to me yesterday as we laid in bed. That made my heart melt. As someone who constantly feels like I’m never enough for anyone, it made me […]

An Eventful Week Indeed

A lot has happened to me in the past few days. I adopted 2 pet rats and I named them Rey and Jyn respectively (they’re both girls, obviously). And also adopted a dwarf rabbit that my ex-coworker wanted to take to the shelter, that I named Poe. I went from being all by myself to […]

National Coming Out Day 

This morning, I woke up with a sense of dread. I was dreading my decision to “come out”.  It’s National Coming Out Day today and I had made the decision to come out. And at 7.55am, I sat down with my Chromebook, took a deep breath and started typing. I had only 5 minutes because […]