Strange Social Behavior

I’m drained. Burnt out. Stressed out. I’m all kinds of not-doing-well, I guess. I flip-flop between being okay, and not okay throughout the day and some of the time, just feeling nothing at all. I’m a little nervous about seeing S this week – not only because it’s a change in routine (he had something […]

Psychologists Are Humans Too

I find it ironic that therapists/psychologists are so very calm, collected, and seem to have their life so perfectly balanced when you see them in their office – their comfort zone. However, once outside of that space, they are just like all of us with insecurities, fears, dreams, hopes, and such. Sometimes, it’s easy to […]

Exhaustion

I was supposed to come home and study/finish my homework or assignments. Guess what I did instead? I browsed through Amazon for things that I shouldn’t be buying and wasted all the precious time on that. It’s like I have an unconscious desire to fail in school. It also seems like with the self-harm, I […]

Reflections From Today

So I saw Dr W today, my psychiatrist. I told her how I don’t like being on Strattera and how tired it makes me feel. I also told her that it’s not working all that well anymore because I haven’t been able to focus or concentrate on anything lately. She asked me about my stressors […]

Thoughts From Therapy #78 – Craving Attention

I have found from today’s session with S that when I’m sleep drunk, I’m actually very effective and productive in therapy because it lets the child take over and talk more freely than when I’m fully awake. I had woken up this morning in the middle of REM sleep which caused me to experience a […]