If you Google, “How to tie a noose”, the first result that comes up is a message assuring you that help is available and to call a crisis line number. I told S that today and he responded with an enthusiastic, “That’s cool!” While I do agree with him wholeheartedly that it is cool, I […]
I practically made S run out of his office to meet me today. I feel embarrassed to say that I not only had a walk-in session today before my group therapy session, but that I also had group therapy, AND I also requested to see S.
Tonight is the last night I’ll ever spend in this apartment. From tomorrow onwards, my life will be a complete 180. I have yet to figure out how to live the rest of my miserable life though I have come up with several ways I can shorten it. The only thing it’ll take it is […]
The session with S went well enough… At the start. Near the end, it took a turn for the worse because the child was craving more attention while the adult wanted to keep us safe. So the adult said to S, “I didn’t want to tell you this….” I paused because the child started to […]
I just cut myself. The emotional anguish I feel is so great that nothing I did or thought about helped. I was near tears at every moment and indeed cried multiple times today. The Ex treated me to frozen yogurt and that calmed the child down for a little while but the rage, hopelessness, and […]
I have a post that I wrote last week that hasn’t been published because it’s only halfway done. It’s probably the only hopeful post I have because since then, my life has taken a turn downwards. At this time, things are looking bleak for me and its hard for me to not wallow in the […]
Just like Monday’s session, and every session I’ve ever had, Wednesday’s session with S started with him asking me how I was. I told him that I am not as good as I “should” be – to which he responded in an amused tone, “Not as good as you should?”