Fear of the Dark

My friends (who also happen to be my coworkers) invited me out for a night of camping today.  I am glad I came out because I am enjoying myself, not because I like the humidity, the bugs, or the sleeping on the ground, but rather because I got to spend time with people I see […]

Weathering The Storm

I have a post that I wrote last week that hasn’t been published because it’s only halfway done. It’s probably the only hopeful post I have because since then, my life has taken a turn downwards.  At this time, things are looking bleak for me and its hard for me to not wallow in the […]

While I Was On The Figurative Ledge

I just had my first official second session with S today – I had to go in at his walk-in hour though because we couldn’t find any other time. Because I was so overwhelmed and in quite a lot of danger to myself for a while there, he let me sit there and sob for […]

Relentless Wave

When will I ever learn that when I’m feeling extremely down and depressed that I really should go to bed? Instead, I often fall into the trap of rumination and listening to sad songs on loop while trying to make myself cry in hopes that that will fix things. It was my first day back […]

More Of The Same

Today is more of the same. Still stuck in rumination and negativity. The worst part was how I know that just a few weeks before this, I was finally on the mend. But then, I let life get to me again and now I’m finding it harder than ever to get back up. I’ve been […]

My Cry For Help

Between it being very close to my time of the month (and thus rampant unbalanced hormones) and my inability to think outside of my immediate stressful situation, I find myself in a situation where self harm was the first thought that popped to mind. An hour ago, a table of 5 that someone else had […]

How Can I Deal With Stressors?

What do you do when all you are feeling is hopelessness? How do you cope when you feel like you can’t talk to anyone – either because you don’t want them to worry or because you feel that no one understands or because you feel bad that all you talk about with people are negative […]