Today, I’m proud of myself. Now, that’s quite a rare one, isn’t it? If you’ve been following my blog for a while now, you’d know that I have a high level of self-shame, self-hatred, and I find it hard to self-love. Lately however, I’ve been coming to terms with how I feel about myself and […]
Trigger warning: Talk about self-harm in this post.
I think I’m kidding myself and I’m pretending when I’m in front of everyone else. I don’t think I’m as well as I want to feel and just because I’m not thinking of something, doesn’t mean it’s not in my mind. I’m trying to be patient and when in times of loneliness, I’ve sought out […]
I practically made S run out of his office to meet me today. I feel embarrassed to say that I not only had a walk-in session today before my group therapy session, but that I also had group therapy, AND I also requested to see S.
The session with S went well enough… At the start. Near the end, it took a turn for the worse because the child was craving more attention while the adult wanted to keep us safe. So the adult said to S, “I didn’t want to tell you this….” I paused because the child started to […]
Change is terrifying. I think anyone and everyone can attest to this. No one likes change (not initially anyway) and for someone like me, who has been through a lot of traumatic times in my life, who struggles with separation anxiety disorder and a deep sense of abandonment through various periods of my life, change […]
**Note: This was supposed to be published last Thursday but I got too busy to finish this uber long post so now it’s out of place.** S and I make a great team. I’ve known that for a while now because of how almost effortless it is for us to hash things out and to […]