Strange Social Behavior

I’m drained. Burnt out. Stressed out. I’m all kinds of not-doing-well, I guess. I flip-flop between being okay, and not okay throughout the day and some of the time, just feeling nothing at all. I’m a little nervous about seeing S this week – not only because it’s a change in routine (he had something […]

Thoughts From Therapy #78 – Craving Attention

I have found from today’s session with S that when I’m sleep drunk, I’m actually very effective and productive in therapy because it lets the child take over and talk more freely than when I’m fully awake. I had woken up this morning in the middle of REM sleep which caused me to experience a […]

Pretension and Denial

I think I’m kidding myself and I’m pretending when I’m in front of everyone else. I don’t think I’m as well as I want to feel and just because I’m not thinking of something, doesn’t mean it’s not in my mind. I’m trying to be patient and when in times of loneliness, I’ve sought out […]

Emergency Session With S

I practically made S run out of his office to meet me today. I feel embarrassed to say that I not only had a walk-in session today before my group therapy session, but that I also had group therapy, AND I also requested to see S.

Last Night Before Huge ChangesĀ 

Tonight is the last night I’ll ever spend in this apartment. From tomorrow onwards, my life will be a complete 180.  I have yet to figure out how to live the rest of my miserable life though I have come up with several ways I can shorten it. The only thing it’ll take it is […]