When I saw the email sender’s name, my stomach actually did flip-flops. It was S. About 2 week or so ago, I had reached out to the CAPS office to re-engage in therapy. I had returned to the state where my school is located, so this meant that I could re-establish care now that I’m […]
April 22nd 2018 marked my third anniversary for starting therapy. It’s been 3 years since I decided to take life by the rein, and actively work on my mental health. It has been life changing, and I’m truly all the better for it. It was (and still is) rough some days, but I had an […]
I just got a new job here in the Pacific Northwest area. Today was Day 3 of training, and boy it was tedious. All training programs are though, so there’s that… I’ve finally wrenched myself out of the food industry. I joined an outsourcing company, that handles customer service, as well as technical support. I […]
I don’t remember the exact date, as I have a tendency of blocking unpleasant things out of my memory, but I think I’m at a one-year mark since my “official” divorce. I used the quotation marks because that was when the court actually mandated the divorce, but I was separated from the Ex months before […]
As promised, here is part 2.
I’m feeling pretty wiped out today because of my monthly blood loss so I’ll just plonk this one here until I have more time to expound on it: Today’s wisdom from the psychologist’s couch is: I’ve repeated many patterns in my life due to many different reasons – but one of the most notable […]
Today, I’m proud of myself. Now, that’s quite a rare one, isn’t it? If you’ve been following my blog for a while now, you’d know that I have a high level of self-shame, self-hatred, and I find it hard to self-love. Lately however, I’ve been coming to terms with how I feel about myself and […]
Last Friday, I had a difficult group session. Every time I go to group, I get triggered and I often leave feeling unsettled or sometimes even outright upset. It’s just that the things we talk about are very difficult things and a lot of the times, we bring up issues that everyone identifies and relates […]
Anyone who follows my Facebook, my blog, or knows me personally knows that I’ve been through a hellish year with processing the traumas of my life, processing a painful and messy divorce, battling suicidal thoughts and intents, battling self harming tendencies, processing my sexual orientation and what it means to be Christian despite it, dealing […]
“I know from the way you stroke my hair, the way you talk to me, the way you look at me, that you really love me,” Chérie said to me yesterday as we laid in bed. That made my heart melt. As someone who constantly feels like I’m never enough for anyone, it made me […]
Hitting Reset 