If I could go back in time, one thing I would tell myself would be that it’s okay to tell people “No”, especially when it comes to invitations to hang out, go out, or do a thing. I was what people would call a flaky friend. I would say yes to every invitation. I truly […]
I’m drained. Burnt out. Stressed out. I’m all kinds of not-doing-well, I guess. I flip-flop between being okay, and not okay throughout the day and some of the time, just feeling nothing at all. I’m a little nervous about seeing S this week – not only because it’s a change in routine (he had something […]
Yesterday, I had a session with S where I spent the first 20 minutes talking about how hilarious it was that I had served my group therapy leader, and also spoke about some other unimportant things. I was not in the mood to delve deeper into my issues. I wanted to keep things superficial and […]
Recently, I was in the room when a conversation began between some people. Normally, it wouldn’t have been a conversation that I would’ve been interested in as one of the participants of the conversation, a girl, was talking about getting something cosmetically done to herself. What has made this conversation stick to my mind was […]
So my in-laws are visiting for Thanksgiving. I really don’t mind being around them because I’ve gotten used to having them over and stuff. That said, I’m currently upstairs in my little messy sanctuary I call my office because Mother-in-Law decided that she needed a 15 minute nap and I decided to use this time […]
Whenever the holiday season descends on us, I have a hard time. In fact, it’s not really just the holiday season but any time I have to spend an extended amount of time with family or relatives is a hard time for me. The reason it’s hard is because not only is it already exhausting […]
So this is the third time this semester that I’ve had to utilize CAPS’ walk-in hours. I know I always preface it that way because of my own guilt and insecurities about going in to CAPS on a day that I’m not scheduled to. Note that this post will be slightly disjointed as I wasn’t […]
I have social anxiety and though it’s actually improving now since I’ve started therapy, I’ve also noticed a thing where you can put me on a stage with a topic and I can talk people’s ears off while still making enough sense. I think it has something to do with the fact that I had […]
I went to a mental health presentation by Ross Szabo tonight that was really inspiring. Ross Szabo is the CEO of Human Power Project and also author of “Behind Happy Faces”. He’s a mental health advocate and has travelled all over to spread the message of awareness and empower others to learn healthy coping skills […]
If you’ve been following my blog, you’ve realized that these past few weeks have been difficult – sometimes even downright hopeless – for me. While my therapist and I are working on it, my last session with him had largely been to address my daily suicidal feelings and my self-harm thoughts that are triggered by […]
Hitting Reset 