I am happy today. I am so happy that my anxiety, and depression are temporarily gone from my awareness. It’s different. Something else is different too. For the first time in my life, I am not afraid to say that I am proud of the fact that I am happy. I don’t have to make excuses […]
When J asked where we’d like to start, I said that I would because I wanted some feedback. So I started to explain some context about my selves – about how I have a conflict between the Adult and the Child selves. I also talked about something that I’ve found too embarrassing and even shameful […]
I’m feeling pretty wiped out today because of my monthly blood loss so I’ll just plonk this one here until I have more time to expound on it: Today’s wisdom from the psychologist’s couch is: I’ve repeated many patterns in my life due to many different reasons – but one of the most notable […]
Today, I’m proud of myself. Now, that’s quite a rare one, isn’t it? If you’ve been following my blog for a while now, you’d know that I have a high level of self-shame, self-hatred, and I find it hard to self-love. Lately however, I’ve been coming to terms with how I feel about myself and […]
Last Friday, I had a difficult group session. Every time I go to group, I get triggered and I often leave feeling unsettled or sometimes even outright upset. It’s just that the things we talk about are very difficult things and a lot of the times, we bring up issues that everyone identifies and relates […]
Today’s session with S went relatively well – as usual we always run out of time when we start to work really hard. I say relatively because I really enjoyed his company today, but I was also just feeling raw and weepy. I like how I can feel safe enough to go to his office […]
Note: As usual, this is a long one – usually the posts titled “Thoughts From Therapy” are going to be really long doozy posts to read. S’ expression was worry and/or concern almost the whole time through our session today. Hey, I’d be too if I were the psychologist and my client comes in and […]
I can’t believe how much I’ve changed and grown as a person since starting therapy last year. The Jules last year would have freaked out, felt thoroughly ashamed, beat herself up, and be devastated had she heard what S told me yesterday because the last-year-Jules was a different person then. When I walked in to […]
**Note: This was supposed to be published last Thursday but I got too busy to finish this uber long post so now it’s out of place.** S and I make a great team. I’ve known that for a while now because of how almost effortless it is for us to hash things out and to […]
I have some very interesting insights from a walk-in session that I forced myself to go to on Thursday as well as from group therapy that I went for this afternoon. Unfortunately, this is the weekend and I work all weekend so I won’t have time to do any blogging until next week. I’ll definitely […]
Hitting Reset 