Still Fighting

So it has been quite a hot minute since I last wrote anything here, huh? Well, I’m still alive. I’m still anxious. Still depressed. And still ADHD. Those thing have not changed, and I don’t think will ever change. I think I’ve finally come to terms with that and have decided instead to take each […]

Pride Deserving of a Gryffindor

Today, I’m proud of myself. Now, that’s quite a rare one, isn’t it? If you’ve been following my blog for a while now, you’d know that I have a high level of self-shame, self-hatred, and I find it hard to self-love. Lately however, I’ve been coming to terms with how I feel about myself and […]

Still Alive

Anyone who follows my Facebook, my blog, or knows me personally knows that I’ve been through a hellish year with processing the traumas of my life, processing a painful and messy divorce, battling suicidal thoughts and intents, battling self harming tendencies, processing my sexual orientation and what it means to be Christian despite it, dealing […]

Lessons in Recovery

“I know from the way you stroke my hair, the way you talk to me, the way you look at me, that you really love me,” Chérie said to me yesterday as we laid in bed. That made my heart melt. As someone who constantly feels like I’m never enough for anyone, it made me […]

Another Update

I know some of you have been worried about me because I haven’t been active on WordPress or written in my blog. Things have been a whirlwind of intense emotions. I’m sometimes very distressed and depressed, and then other times feeling okay, feeling “fine”. The only good news I have for myself right now is […]

Thoughts from Therapy #86 – Self Punishment

Note: As usual, this is a long one – usually the posts titled “Thoughts From Therapy” are going to be really long doozy posts to read. S’ expression was worry and/or concern almost the whole time through our session today. Hey, I’d be too if I were the psychologist and my client comes in and […]