So I finally did it. I got my first tattoo! After having talked about getting a tattoo for a while now, I finally mustered up the courage (and Chérie also pushed me toward it) to do it. I found a minority owned tattoo shop in a hipster city here in the Pacific Northwest, and found […]
I hate my ex. When I think about all the good times we had, I feel so guilty for all that I feel – that I had once loved him, and that I now hate him. I hate that I had ever loved him. I think I was in love with the idea of him. […]
So it has been quite a hot minute since I last wrote anything here, huh? Well, I’m still alive. I’m still anxious. Still depressed. And still ADHD. Those thing have not changed, and I don’t think will ever change. I think I’ve finally come to terms with that and have decided instead to take each […]
I was going to write a post to outline my thoughts from therapy today (the new semester just started on Monday, and thankfully, I was able to keep my Wednesday therapy session, and would still see S regularly until such a time that we both feel that I’m ready to rough life out by myself. […]
“I know from the way you stroke my hair, the way you talk to me, the way you look at me, that you really love me,” Chérie said to me yesterday as we laid in bed. That made my heart melt. As someone who constantly feels like I’m never enough for anyone, it made me […]
A lot has happened to me in the past few days. I adopted 2 pet rats and I named them Rey and Jyn respectively (they’re both girls, obviously). And also adopted a dwarf rabbit that my ex-coworker wanted to take to the shelter, that I named Poe. I went from being all by myself to […]
This morning, I woke up with a sense of dread. I was dreading my decision to “come out”. It’s National Coming Out Day today and I had made the decision to come out. And at 7.55am, I sat down with my Chromebook, took a deep breath and started typing. I had only 5 minutes because […]
It has been an eventful and moderately overwhelming day – both for good and bad reasons. I woke up this morning and discovered that I was low on both Zoloft and Strattera. I was very tempted to let them run out and just quit my psych meds cold turkey. I don’t think that would’ve been […]
There was an event at the Multicultural Center today. As I stood at a booth and listened to the person elaborating on their organization, someone at the LGBTQ booth stopped me and said in an excited voice, “Oh! You don’t know me, but I know you!” I was surprised. They continued, “Yeah! You write a […]
Today’s session with S had been emotionally and physically exhausting. It wasn’t his fault of course. Rather, it was all of the things that I talked to him about; all the things I made myself feel all at once today. I was overwhelmed this past week and I had numbed myself through it all until […]
Hitting Reset 