I wanted to write about the therapy session I had yesterday but a piece of news had shocked me so much last night that I feel it pertinent to address. The mental health community has been rocked by the news that Amy Bleuel, the founder of Project Semicolon, has passed away from suicide. She had […]
Today, I’m proud of myself. Now, that’s quite a rare one, isn’t it? If you’ve been following my blog for a while now, you’d know that I have a high level of self-shame, self-hatred, and I find it hard to self-love. Lately however, I’ve been coming to terms with how I feel about myself and […]
Anyone who follows my Facebook, my blog, or knows me personally knows that I’ve been through a hellish year with processing the traumas of my life, processing a painful and messy divorce, battling suicidal thoughts and intents, battling self harming tendencies, processing my sexual orientation and what it means to be Christian despite it, dealing […]
“I know from the way you stroke my hair, the way you talk to me, the way you look at me, that you really love me,” Chérie said to me yesterday as we laid in bed. That made my heart melt. As someone who constantly feels like I’m never enough for anyone, it made me […]
I know some of you have been worried about me because I haven’t been active on WordPress or written in my blog. Things have been a whirlwind of intense emotions. I’m sometimes very distressed and depressed, and then other times feeling okay, feeling “fine”. The only good news I have for myself right now is […]
Today’s session with S went relatively well – as usual we always run out of time when we start to work really hard. I say relatively because I really enjoyed his company today, but I was also just feeling raw and weepy. I like how I can feel safe enough to go to his office […]
Note: As usual, this is a long one – usually the posts titled “Thoughts From Therapy” are going to be really long doozy posts to read. S’ expression was worry and/or concern almost the whole time through our session today. Hey, I’d be too if I were the psychologist and my client comes in and […]
Trigger warning: This post might trigger anxiety attacks because of what I’ll be talking about. It’s 10.35am and I’m stressed out to nearly the point of being overwhelmed. I’m close. Any more and I’ll definitely be in the red zone. I think the source of my stress came from thinking too far ahead – I […]
So my weekend has been a mix of good and bad – a lot of it was pretty bad in multiple ways.
“We’re going to have to check in with S about this, ok? Just to let him know what we’ve talked about today and to keep him updated,” J said as she, T, and I wrapped up our crisis intervention session. As someone who had used the walk in service dozens of times now, I knew […]
Hitting Reset 