Pride Deserving of a Gryffindor

Today, I’m proud of myself. Now, that’s quite a rare one, isn’t it? If you’ve been following my blog for a while now, you’d know that I have a high level of self-shame, self-hatred, and I find it hard to self-love. Lately however, I’ve been coming to terms with how I feel about myself and […]

Still Alive

Anyone who follows my Facebook, my blog, or knows me personally knows that I’ve been through a hellish year with processing the traumas of my life, processing a painful and messy divorce, battling suicidal thoughts and intents, battling self harming tendencies, processing my sexual orientation and what it means to be Christian despite it, dealing […]

Difficult Weekend

It’s been a difficult weekend but I’m still here. I promised my group that I would be back next week despite the difficult thing I shared with them during group on Friday. I had initially been silent – I kept quiet for the first hour of the 1 1/2 hour session. I didn’t want to […]

People Care

“I want to die” 4 words I posted on Facebook that gained almost immediate attention from one of my coworkers and an old friend whom I’ve not seen in 5 years. It was touching. In that moment when I posted it, I had meant it. I did want to die. I was overwhelmed and exhausted. […]

Another Walk-In Session

Hey guys, remember this incident: Walk-In Therapy Session That Bombed? It was the first time ever after a year of sessions at CAPS that I had ever had a somewhat negative experience with a therapist. Now, this is not a reflection of the therapist’s skill or personality but rather my incompatibility with her and how […]

Overwhelmed 

I haven’t been blogging because I’m so overwhelmed by the immense workload that I have. Sure, I’ve dropped a class but I’m still drowning.  I just got a new job today which hopefully (theoretically anyway) will help give me more time because the new restaurant I work at closes at 11pm at the latest whereas […]