Of the Death of a Family Member
TW: Suicide
Tag: suicidal thoughts
Still Alive
Anyone who follows my Facebook, my blog, or knows me personally knows that I’ve been through a hellish year with processing the traumas of my life, processing a painful and messy divorce, battling suicidal thoughts and intents, battling self harming tendencies, processing my sexual orientation and what it means to be Christian despite it, dealing […]
3rd Walk-In Session of the Week
Trigger warning: Talk about self-harm in this post.
Reflections From Today
So I saw Dr W today, my psychiatrist. I told her how I don’t like being on Strattera and how tired it makes me feel. I also told her that it’s not working all that well anymore because I haven’t been able to focus or concentrate on anything lately. She asked me about my stressors […]
Suicidality
If you Google, “How to tie a noose”, the first result that comes up is a message assuring you that help is available and to call a crisis line number. I told S that today and he responded with an enthusiastic, “That’s cool!” While I do agree with him wholeheartedly that it is cool, I […]
Renewed Passion
After the amazing experience I had at the Office of Health and Wellness Peer Educators’ Retreat, I’ve added one more thing that I could potentially do as a future career. I’m looking at different ways I can combine Computer Science with my other passions and I think I’ve got some ideas what I want to […]
Thoughts From Therapy #78 – Craving Attention
I have found from today’s session with S that when I’m sleep drunk, I’m actually very effective and productive in therapy because it lets the child take over and talk more freely than when I’m fully awake. I had woken up this morning in the middle of REM sleep which caused me to experience a […]
Pretension and Denial
I think I’m kidding myself and I’m pretending when I’m in front of everyone else. I don’t think I’m as well as I want to feel and just because I’m not thinking of something, doesn’t mean it’s not in my mind. I’m trying to be patient and when in times of loneliness, I’ve sought out […]
Emergency Session With S
I practically made S run out of his office to meet me today. I feel embarrassed to say that I not only had a walk-in session today before my group therapy session, but that I also had group therapy, AND I also requested to see S.
Thoughts From Therapy – #75 – Relinquishing My Weapon and A Change of Style
The session with S went well enough… At the start. Near the end, it took a turn for the worse because the child was craving more attention while the adult wanted to keep us safe. So the adult said to S, “I didn’t want to tell you this….” I paused because the child started to […]
Hitting Reset 