I hate my ex. When I think about all the good times we had, I feel so guilty for all that I feel – that I had once loved him, and that I now hate him. I hate that I had ever loved him. I think I was in love with the idea of him. […]
When friends used to tell me that I was experiencing emotional abuse, I would laugh because in my mind, it was absurd. I consider myself an intelligent, and independent woman. How could I be emotionally abused? I’m not like those women who stay in a battered relationship. I’m not needy, or worse… Weak. I can’t be […]
I don’t remember the exact date, as I have a tendency of blocking unpleasant things out of my memory, but I think I’m at a one-year mark since my “official” divorce. I used the quotation marks because that was when the court actually mandated the divorce, but I was separated from the Ex months before […]
My ex got married today. I don’t know how to feel. He’s still my friend but I’ll be honest, it’s hard to know what to feel because on one hand, I’m happy that he was able to find someone, but on the other hand, I’m still raw from our divorce. I’m still grieving and feeling […]
T-minus 1 day and 1 hour until school reopens. Eep! I’m both nervous and excited at the same time – nervous because the semester I’ll be starting in the Fall is called the “Gauntlet Semester” where I have 2 classes that are known as the “weed-out” class – Computing 2 (where I’ll learn 3 programming […]
Tonight is the last night I’ll ever spend in this apartment. From tomorrow onwards, my life will be a complete 180. I have yet to figure out how to live the rest of my miserable life though I have come up with several ways I can shorten it. The only thing it’ll take it is […]
My friends (who also happen to be my coworkers) invited me out for a night of camping today. I am glad I came out because I am enjoying myself, not because I like the humidity, the bugs, or the sleeping on the ground, but rather because I got to spend time with people I see […]
Hitting Reset 