If I could go back in time, one thing I would tell myself would be that it’s okay to tell people “No”, especially when it comes to invitations to hang out, go out, or do a thing. I was what people would call a flaky friend. I would say yes to every invitation. I truly […]
“I want to die” 4 words I posted on Facebook that gained almost immediate attention from one of my coworkers and an old friend whom I’ve not seen in 5 years. It was touching. In that moment when I posted it, I had meant it. I did want to die. I was overwhelmed and exhausted. […]
Whenever I find out that someone suffer from the same kind of mental illnesses that I do (anxiety, depression, ADHD), I automatically become inclined to talk to them more because I know how difficult it is to feel all alone and helpless. I would almost reflexively tell them that I’m there for them to talk […]
On Wednesday, I had a great session with S. I told him of my epiphany regarding how the anger and rage I often feel comes from the teenager side of me and that the adult side is broken into two – one is the rational, kind, and caring adult while the other is the nagging, […]
I’m alive. I promise. It’s just that things have gotten so overwhelmingly bad for me that I can’t bring myself to write anything here. This post will be raw and might be triggering for some as I have some discussions on suicide. For more, read on after the jump.
I know I promised to write a summary of what I’ve learned from my therapy session a few days ago but I really can’t get around to doing it. With all the studying I’ve been doing these past few days (can you believe it’s only been a week?) and all the other things I’ve been […]
It comes as no surprise that this week has been very difficult. I don’t think it’ll ease up until next Friday when my finals will be over. However, that said, I did receive a very heart warming message from a friend whom I really count as one of my closest friends now and whom I […]
Well, it’s that time of the year. The time where everyone (at least in Northern America) sits back and asks themselves, “What am I thankful for this year?” I think now as I reflect, I have a lot to be thankful for – even if I have been spending the past 3 months being more […]
Some people wonder why I have trust issues and why I’m so dissociated (I feel numb and emotionless most of the time) but it isn’t entirely my fault. I’ve just learned through many painful experiences that people are not dependable and despite desperately wanting to trust people, I often put my trust on the wrong […]
I know I recently wrote about friends and how someone who confesses to struggling with mental illnesses often lose friends because suddenly, you’re a burden to be around. To be honest, this is a topic that is still really really bothering me. In fact, the topic of “friendship” has come up this whole week for […]
Hitting Reset 