I hate my ex. When I think about all the good times we had, I feel so guilty for all that I feel – that I had once loved him, and that I now hate him. I hate that I had ever loved him. I think I was in love with the idea of him. […]
I am happy today. I am so happy that my anxiety, and depression are temporarily gone from my awareness. It’s different. Something else is different too. For the first time in my life, I am not afraid to say that I am proud of the fact that I am happy. I don’t have to make excuses […]
So my weekend has been a mix of good and bad – a lot of it was pretty bad in multiple ways.
S and I talked about what I did on Saturday at the event. I was filled with trepidation as I recounted what I did (for context, read this: Strange Social Behavior). I was nervous because I was afraid that I’ll lose S; that he’ll be afraid of me and pull away. I didn’t want him […]
I have a post that I wrote last week that hasn’t been published because it’s only halfway done. It’s probably the only hopeful post I have because since then, my life has taken a turn downwards. At this time, things are looking bleak for me and its hard for me to not wallow in the […]
I’ve stopped making New Year’s Resolutions years ago because I realized that if I want to change something about my life, I shouldn’t have to wait until the new year to do so. So now, whenever I’m unhappy with something and I make the decision to change, I change it then and there. What I […]
What do you do when all you are feeling is hopelessness? How do you cope when you feel like you can’t talk to anyone – either because you don’t want them to worry or because you feel that no one understands or because you feel bad that all you talk about with people are negative […]