I am happy today. I am so happy that my anxiety, and depression are temporarily gone from my awareness. It’s different. Something else is different too. For the first time in my life, I am not afraid to say that I am proud of the fact that I am happy. I don’t have to make excuses […]
Today’s session with S had been emotionally and physically exhausting. It wasn’t his fault of course. Rather, it was all of the things that I talked to him about; all the things I made myself feel all at once today. I was overwhelmed this past week and I had numbed myself through it all until […]
-Potential trigger warning: This post contains content that deal with childhood sexual trauma and self-harming thoughts. Note that this is also going to be a really long post.- It is a strange thing that I feel that I deserve more compassion when I see myself as someone else than when I see myself in the […]
I’m alive. I promise. It’s just that things have gotten so overwhelmingly bad for me that I can’t bring myself to write anything here. This post will be raw and might be triggering for some as I have some discussions on suicide. For more, read on after the jump.
I can’t believe how many days it’s been since my last post. I am really unable to keep up with the demands of my school and work life this semester. Between juggling 32 hours of work (2 jobs!), my 14-credit hours of school work (including a very demanding Professor whose keeps giving us assignments to […]
I wake up this morning feeling a lot more emotionally stable than I was last night. I think the crying, writing and subsequent sleep really helped. Waking up this morning with awful stomach cramps put a little damper on things but with the miracle of pain killers, I’m not feeling too bad. Anyway, I’ve been […]
As someone struggling with mental illnesses, Star Wars actually allows me to relate to the characters pretty well. In Empire, I related to Luke’s character – it could’ve been me walking into the cave in Dagobah, it could’ve been me having all that anger in me, it could’ve been me choosing between Dark and Light. […]
It just occurred to me today that if I don’t want my psychologist to read into something or ask me how I feel about it to talk about it, that I shouldn’t bring it up. I just realized that every time I go in to speak to my psychologist, almost everything we talk about has […]
“You are important” Three simple words but they hold so much meaning and was the most important thing I could’ve heard today.
So my in-laws are visiting for Thanksgiving. I really don’t mind being around them because I’ve gotten used to having them over and stuff. That said, I’m currently upstairs in my little messy sanctuary I call my office because Mother-in-Law decided that she needed a 15 minute nap and I decided to use this time […]
Hitting Reset 