Of Being Happy and Mindful

I am happy today. I am so happy that my anxiety, and depression are temporarily gone from my awareness. It’s different. Something else is different too. For the first time in my life, I am not afraid to say that I am┬áproud of the fact that I am happy. I don’t have to make excuses […]

Avoidance of News

Today’s session with S had been emotionally and physically exhausting. It wasn’t his fault of course. Rather, it was all of the things that I talked to him about; all the things I made myself feel all at once today. I was overwhelmed this past week and I had numbed myself through it all until […]

More Updates – Week 3 of School Complete

I can’t believe how many days it’s been since my last post. I am really unable to keep up with the demands of my school and work life this semester. Between juggling 32 hours of work (2 jobs!), my 14-credit hours of school work (including a very demanding Professor whose keeps giving us assignments to […]

Why I Don’t Want To Get Better

I wake up this morning feeling a lot more emotionally stable than I was last night. I think the crying, writing and subsequent sleep really helped. Waking up this morning with awful stomach cramps put a little damper on things but with the miracle of pain killers, I’m not feeling too bad. Anyway, I’ve been […]

Life Lesson From Star Wars

As someone struggling with mental illnesses, Star Wars actually allows me to relate to the characters pretty well. In Empire, I related to Luke’s character – it could’ve been me walking into the cave in Dagobah, it could’ve been me having all that anger in me, it could’ve been me choosing between Dark and Light. […]