3rd Walk-In Session of the Week
Trigger warning: Talk about self-harm in this post.
Tag: suicidal
Reflections From Today
So I saw Dr W today, my psychiatrist. I told her how I don’t like being on Strattera and how tired it makes me feel. I also told her that it’s not working all that well anymore because I haven’t been able to focus or concentrate on anything lately. She asked me about my stressors […]
Renewed Passion
After the amazing experience I had at the Office of Health and Wellness Peer Educators’ Retreat, I’ve added one more thing that I could potentially do as a future career. I’m looking at different ways I can combine Computer Science with my other passions and I think I’ve got some ideas what I want to […]
Pretension and Denial
I think I’m kidding myself and I’m pretending when I’m in front of everyone else. I don’t think I’m as well as I want to feel and just because I’m not thinking of something, doesn’t mean it’s not in my mind. I’m trying to be patient and when in times of loneliness, I’ve sought out […]
Emergency Session With S
I practically made S run out of his office to meet me today. I feel embarrassed to say that I not only had a walk-in session today before my group therapy session, but that I also had group therapy, AND I also requested to see S.
Deep Anguish
I just cut myself. The emotional anguish I feel is so great that nothing I did or thought about helped. I was near tears at every moment and indeed cried multiple times today. The Ex treated me to frozen yogurt and that calmed the child down for a little while but the rage, hopelessness, and […]
Pain of Regrets
I can’t stop crying. Every time I think about this one significant person in my life, I bawl. I cried for hours yesterday and cried even as I drove to and from work. There are so many regrets in my heart. So much pain. I can’t bear this burden by myself but I have to. […]
Profound Loneliness
I got off work earlier than I expected tonight so at the urging of some friends, I decided to check out the gay clubs I work near. Well, I’m there now but I’m on my phone because I don’t feel like I belong at all. In fact, I feel even more alone now amidst this […]
A Life Saved
I would’ve died if not for S. I know that statement is dramatic but I am person who quite enjoys adding dramatic flair to the things I say. In any case, dramatic or not, it’s the truth. I’ve been struggling really badly as I’ve mentioned in my previous post so I came up with a […]
When I Stood On The Top Floor Of The Parking Garage
After the incredible session with S on Monday, I had one that I felt really unsatisfied with on Wednesday. I was unsatisfied because I was in a confused state of mind so for the first half an hour, we talked about something that I didn’t feel was very important and didn’t hit the points that […]
Hitting Reset 