I hate my ex. When I think about all the good times we had, I feel so guilty for all that I feel – that I had once loved him, and that I now hate him. I hate that I had ever loved him. I think I was in love with the idea of him. […]
My ex got married today. I don’t know how to feel. He’s still my friend but I’ll be honest, it’s hard to know what to feel because on one hand, I’m happy that he was able to find someone, but on the other hand, I’m still raw from our divorce. I’m still grieving and feeling […]
Tonight is the last night I’ll ever spend in this apartment. From tomorrow onwards, my life will be a complete 180. I have yet to figure out how to live the rest of my miserable life though I have come up with several ways I can shorten it. The only thing it’ll take it is […]
My friends (who also happen to be my coworkers) invited me out for a night of camping today. I am glad I came out because I am enjoying myself, not because I like the humidity, the bugs, or the sleeping on the ground, but rather because I got to spend time with people I see […]
So many people have told me that I’m the “bigger person”, that I’ve shown so much grace, patience, and kindness to someone they didn’t think I should even interact with. The person told me today that they appreciate my kindness so much. That she didn’t think I’d be this way towards her. She said that […]
I have a post that I wrote last week that hasn’t been published because it’s only halfway done. It’s probably the only hopeful post I have because since then, my life has taken a turn downwards. At this time, things are looking bleak for me and its hard for me to not wallow in the […]
Well, it’s that time of the year. The time where everyone (at least in Northern America) sits back and asks themselves, “What am I thankful for this year?” I think now as I reflect, I have a lot to be thankful for – even if I have been spending the past 3 months being more […]
So my next (and final!) speech will be a persuasion speech to call people to action. And surprise surprise, the topic will be on suicide prevention. I initially wanted to talk about the stigma of mental health and to call people to action in the end to help fight the stigma on campus but my […]
I won’t go into details as this relates to another person who might not want details revealed but suffice to say that my mental illnesses have definitely caused a huge strain on my marriage. We’ve been married 7 years and I’m still amazed at the fact that my husband has stuck through it all despite […]
This little drawing personifies my relationship with my husband where my depression is concerned. I’m often very angry, and most of the time, I can’t explain why. Though I don’t feel much because of how I repress my feelings, I do feel a lot of rage and anger. Most of the time, I take this […]
Hitting Reset 