Slow Recovery From Divorce

I hate my ex. When I think about all the good times we had, I feel so guilty for all that I feel – that I had once loved him, and that I now hate him. I hate that I had ever loved him. I think I was in love with the idea of him. […]

Loss and Lost

My ex got married today. I don’t know how to feel. He’s still my friend but I’ll be honest, it’s hard to know what to feel because on one hand, I’m happy that he was able to find someone, but on the other hand, I’m still raw from our divorce. I’m still grieving and feeling […]

Last Night Before Huge Changes 

Tonight is the last night I’ll ever spend in this apartment. From tomorrow onwards, my life will be a complete 180.  I have yet to figure out how to live the rest of my miserable life though I have come up with several ways I can shorten it. The only thing it’ll take it is […]

Fear of the Dark

My friends (who also happen to be my coworkers) invited me out for a night of camping today.  I am glad I came out because I am enjoying myself, not because I like the humidity, the bugs, or the sleeping on the ground, but rather because I got to spend time with people I see […]

Of Being Kind Despite Circumstances 

So many people have told me that I’m the “bigger person”, that I’ve shown so much grace, patience, and kindness to someone they didn’t think I should even interact with.  The person told me today that they appreciate my kindness so much. That she didn’t think I’d be this way towards her. She said that […]

Weathering The Storm

I have a post that I wrote last week that hasn’t been published because it’s only halfway done. It’s probably the only hopeful post I have because since then, my life has taken a turn downwards.  At this time, things are looking bleak for me and its hard for me to not wallow in the […]

What I Am Thankful For

Well, it’s that time of the year. The time where everyone (at least in Northern America) sits back and asks themselves, “What am I thankful for this year?” I think now as I reflect, I have a lot to be thankful for – even if I have been spending the past 3 months being more […]